Apocalypto

And a Man sat alone, drenched deep in sadness. And all the animals drew near to him and said, “We do not like to see you so sad. Ask us for whatever you wish and you shall have it.” The Man said, “I want to have good sight.” The vulture replied, “You shall have mine.” The Man said, “I want to be strong.” The jaguar said, “You shall be strong like me.” Then the Man said, “I long to know the secrets of the earth.” The serpent replied, “I will show them to you.” And so it went with all the animals. And when the Man had all the gifts that they could give, he left. Then the owl said to the other animals, “Now the Man knows much, he’ll be able to do many things. Suddenly I am afraid.” The deer said, “The Man has all that he needs. Now his sadness will stop.” But the owl replied, “No. I saw a hole in the Man, deep like a hunger he will never fill. It is what makes him sad and what makes him want. He will go on taking and taking, until one day the World will say, ‘I am no more and I have nothing left to give.’”

So true. Sometimes I feel as though we are all naturally sad and spend our lives turning away from it. I feel privileged to have seen my own sadness and had the strength to look it in the eye.

No regrets and no cigarettes

Just got my new copy of COMPUTERWORLD, a magazine for people in the IT (computer, for those of you who don’t know) business. I was flipping through it just a few minutes ago when I realized that I’ve totally made the best that I’ve ever made in my life in the last twelve months. Here’s the gist of the stories in there: Dell to lay off 8,800 Workers to cut costs after reporting $759 million in profits, IBM cuts 1,500 workers to cut costs, Motorolla to cut 4,000 mor workers to cut costs. All these jobs are U.S. based and though those workers will eventually find other jobs, is that the type of industry that I want to be involved with? My answer is simply “no”. The two vocations that I have chosen, English and Fitness, give me high hopes of finding a worthwhile position no matter what direction I choose to take. Oh, I guess I forgot to mention, I’m studying fitness and personal training in my spare time so that I can get certified this Fall to be a personal trainer.  I’ve got a friend I am talking to tomorrow about how to get new clients and such, which should be pretty cool.  That’s my update and fuck MySpace for not letting me post this on there.