Ups and Downs.

Well, I’m trying to get things figured out with the Ex, as far as what she is taking. See, I was told to get rid of certain things, once she had bought replacements. These items include pots, pans, towels, etc. Well, now she’s telling me that she wants those things. I’ve offered to buy them off of her, but I’m pretty sure she just wants to punish me because of the pain I’ve caused her with the break-up. Like I said, I’ve offered to buy things off of her, I’m not trying to get something for nothing here. It all seems to never end. She is coming over Saturday to pick things up. I guess I’m just going to pack it all up Thursday night and say the hell with it.

In other news, I attended a funeral last week for my staff mentor at school. She passed away a few weeks ago after a long struggle with cancer. It was a nice funeral and her boss/friend gave a great eulogy that really made me lose it. A few days later I found out that an old friend of mine had been killed over seas on a military operation. The funeral is tomorrow night.

It just seems like there is too much going on lately. I’m really having a hard time holding on. I’ve been going for walks to clear my head and get things figured out but I’ve got to take it to the next level. My workouts have been lacking lately. I need to get on a regular schedule and do up a workout sheet for myself. I do them for other people all the time, you’d think I could find the time to do my own. I know for sure this will keep me preoccupied and allow me to feel better about myself. My body is just not what it was back in February, right after I got my Bowflex dumbbells. I mean, I was in really great shape and all my clothes fit wonderfully. Time seems to be a factor at the moment so I’m going to need to make some really quick (20-30min) workouts a few nights a week to keep me going. I mean, I got sick so much in February and March I lost a lot of strength, due to being too sick to lift a dumbbell. It’s crazy that I’m still training folks who are making great strides and working really hard, but I’m feeling like the opposite. I will say that helping them out gives me a great deal of happiness. I guess that’s all I’ve really got to say for now. Maybe if I could motivate myself to do more of these updates, I could keep my head on straight.